personal · Photographs

Makeup, Traveling, Australia

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Snaps from today. I work with Lava Art and did another look for them today! Always fun and I do really like working and being more creative with makeup, but the best part is when I’ve filmed and taken my pics – then taking off the lashes and everything else before I put moisturiser on a fresh and clean face.

My almost monthly cold (what it feels like) is back and I’m just praying to get better before I got to Berlin this week!! To see my unbiological sisters 😉 It’s so cool how they decided to move there, and I’m so excited to experience Berlin for the first time!

Australia is also coming up… In almost just a month! It’s going to be my new home?! How crazy… Will probably write more about the process and everything that comes with it if you are interested. No job or apartment has been found yet, but I’m getting pretty used to just going with the flow.

A different post, more of a little update – but to be honest I’m sitting here in bed ready to make some green tea and finish editing some videos before I try and get my sleep so I can feel better!! I just wanted to check in and write a little something. I do want to know if you would want me to do a video though, I could do a makeup video showing my favourite look for you guys if interested ❤ Let me know!

Also if you’re a true crime freak like me, start listening to true crime podcasts! So far I’ve listened to Dirty John and Dr. Death that I would recommend! Please let me know if you know any really good ones.

personal · Thoughts

What’s Going On?!

If you’re reading this you have probably noticed it’s my first blog post in a long time! I took a very needed break. I was really sick, and had to book a new flight home because I was too ill to get on the plane. I’m just now getting better, still not completely fine. I’ve been really jet lagged and spent the hours awake during the day with my mom and Dan. I just kind of put everything away for a little bit, social media and any work – no gym, no nothing. I think my body just said stop after everything that was going on in LA and I needed to just let my body and mind rest for a bit.

I’m soon back to normal, and tomorrow I’m leaving again! Gran Canaria for Christmas, with my mom ❤ I will update this blog, but more than anything I will focus on YouTube from now on. I’ll be posting all new content on here, including modeling work and photoshoots, outfits… I also have other fun things coming up, and I just need to get back to working hard so everything can turn out how I want it! I really missed writing though, and updating on here – it’s something I really enjoy.

Stay tuned! Good things will come!

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modeling · Photographs

New Photos From My Photoshoot!

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Here’s some of my latest pictures from one of the photoshoots this week! I loved the vibes – the location was Downtown LA in the Diamond District. I have more pictures coming up as well – so stay tuned!

I woke up today with a cold and I think it’s a mix between lack of sleep and the air in this apartment. Not making it better because of all the fires going on as well, it affects the air for sure. I have gotten all my work done though, and now I have these last days to just have fun in L.A before I’m headed home!

Yesterday we were doing bonfire on the beach but I was literally half asleep the entire time. It was really cosy and nice, but when my body and head is tired I’m just not working properly. So we went back, the other girls went out and I took a long shower with the lights turned off, music and scented candles. It’s my new thing, lol. Always makes me feel so relaxed and good.

Now I’m gonna go to the gym! Hope everyone’s good!

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BEFORE AND AFTER PICS – What Did I Look Like When I Was “Perfect” In The Modeling Industry?

So I have told you in videos about my first meeting with the modeling industry, which you can find here if you haven’t seen it yet, and I started thinking… You know, I actually have quite a lot of pictures – why don’t I show you guys before and after?

So lets start… In these pictures I was actually told I was “perfect” and how everyone wanted me in the industry. I had just came from Athens and had recently been at my skinniest, on the pictures I was in Milan and had started to gain a bit of weight but damn I was still struggling a whole bunch looking back at it. Not eating, binge eating, “fixing” it with only drinking juice the day after… All these things coming back to me like HOW did I think it was ok and normal?! It’s almost like I forgot it all until I start really thinking about those times. So here you see a sad girl really struggling inside but still being told she’s “perfect”. Messed up, right?

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This was apparently the “perfect” size for me in the modeling industry… Being skinny like that does NOT make you happier by the way, if you were wondering. It’s all about self love, and when you are told you have to be a certain way and you choose to listen to others and change your body after their words, you have lost yourself and there’s no love left. This was in 2014. If you watch my video there’s my information about how I was struggling, and for how long.

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NOW – STRONG, HAPPY AND CAREFREE ❤

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Then here I am todayyyy! Still doing modeling, still doing what I always wanted – more than ever actuaully. I’m working towards what I want, I love myself and I’m just enjoying food, weights, everything that brings me happiness! I have always had a passion for working out but always felt like I had to restrict what I could do because of modeling, I was wrong! To me I do not want to do high fashion modeling, and modeling is not everything to me, not at all. I have so many things I’m working towards and even bigger goals. I’m not trying to get told how to live my life by an agency that doesn’t understand me, I’m gonna do my own thing and be surrounded by people who respect that. I do weights, get stronger, see results of my hard work while feeling happy about it and it’s actually pretty fucking nice having my booty back, because it has always been there, I just literally starved it away which is so sad. It has obviously grown as my strength has grown as well, which is also pretty cool.

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Feel free to share! And if you have a story to tell or you want to talk or anything feel free to reach out or just leave a comment ❤ Loving yourself is always the most important thing.

personal · traveling

I’m Back In London!

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After a short and nice, but tiring weekend back home I’m now back in London. Not enough sleep mixed with alcohol doesn’t always go well with me. I have always had a need to take enough time for myself when it comes to sleep and getting things done, as well as just relaxing because I do stress too much, so it’s important for me to have a “break” once in a while. And when that doesn’t happen I basically get ill, like I have been all day. That mixed with traveling is not a good mix.

But – I must say it was worth it. It’s been such a great weekend, and I’ll keep the nice memories!

Now I’m very ready to start a new week, new job as a hostess, and just work even harder! Also so good to see Dan again ❤ He makes me feel at home even though I just left. I remember Caitlin saying “the traveler found a home” when we started getting more serious. It’s kinda cute? If you like those cheesy things 🙂 Now we’ll go to the shop then fall asleep watching something.