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How Will We Ever Be Happy With Our Bodies?

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the sun and her flowers by rupi kaur 

i reduced my body to aesthetics

forgot the work it did to keep me alive

with every beat and breath

declared it a grand failure for not looking like theirs

searched everywhere for a miracle

foolish enough to not realise

i was already living in one

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Photo: Mila Ritz

Treat your body like you treat someone you love. Someone who loves you back. You should want to take care of it because it takes care of you. Make sure it’s healthy and happy, because that gives you health and happiness.

I’ve been through ups and downs with my body, and at times I’ve treated it very poorly. I went from being happy and healthy to the opposite when I stepped into the modeling industry. You can read more about that story here.

Everyone always seem to blame “society”. Like we don’t realise we’re part of it. Society isn’t “them”, it’s all of us. It’s the comments, the unrealistic goals that’s never real, and the judgement if you ever say you are happy with yourself.

It starts with us. It will always start with us, you and me. Appreciate your body for what it always was supposed to be. A miracle. Amazing in itself, exactly how it is.

You’re here, aren’t you?

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How Do I Edit My Pictures?

I only edit my pictures on my phone, and I thought I would share my favourite apps with you. My editing always depend on the picture, and what kind of look/mood I’m going for.

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HUJI app

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I love the HUJI app, and startet using it a few months ago. I love the old look and I just think the picture ends up with so much more feeling. It’s probably the easiest way to edit your pictures, if you’re not too picky. You just choose the pictures you want to edit and they “develop”, and a few seconds later you got your pictures looking like they were taken with analog film. The edit is random, and you can also choose if you want random light effects, which I always do.

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Lightroom CC

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With Lightroom I sometimes edit the highlights, contrasts and colour completely different to give the whole picture a different look. It ends up showing more details, especially if the photo was very light and unclear at first. I basically did that on the first photo, and on the second I was quite happy with the look of it (as I was standing right next to the window haha), so I only made the colours a bit stronger and edited some contrast. The good thing about Lightroom is that you can save your edits so that you can just use the same ones on other photos if that’s the vibe you’re going for. I know you can buy other’s presets (edits) as well, but I haven’t done that.

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VSCO

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Previously I used VSCO all the time, but I actually haven’t done that in ages. I do think it’s good for quick edits if you like any of the filters on there though, and it’s also very easy to make it your own with a few changes.

So that’s basically my “go to” editing apps! I’m no pro at editing, but I do really enjoy sitting down and editing my pictures while sipping my coffee and having some random series play on Netflix, haha.

Hope you found some of it useful!

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I Am Two Extremes

Those two extremes equal me. Who I was, who I have become.

There’s the one extreme that has shined through and the one people now seem to recognise in me. Creativeness, ambition and boldness. The loud one that wants to be seen, that wants to live for her passion and be creative. The one that made me fight.

This side of me has made me do and experience things I never in a million years thought I would. It has made me get out of my darkest time, and keeps on pushing me everyday.

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There’s the other one that took up my entire life as a kid. Selective Mutism. Anxiety. Fear. I never left the memories and feelings behind me, I decided to take it with me and carry it to show others what is possible. To inspire and help. Support and spread awareness. I took charge of it and decided I would keep my fight with me to show you, to remind myself of what I have achieved.

It also made me different. Different forever. In a good way. More emotional, but also better at explaining my feelings. More understanding. Stronger. A fighter.

Even if I didn’t want to speak up about it – I know I would  forever have parts of it with me. In everything I am and will become.

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So this is what I want it to be about. To share with you guys. The two sides. The two extremes. Me.

I hope you want to keep reading, interacting and following. There will be new updates here every Wednesday and Sunday, so stay tuned.

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Photos: Goldsmith Photography

Lots of love,

Marte.