Thoughts · traveling

Most Difficult Thing With Long Distance

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My bebe sent me flowers and a teddy for my birthday ❤ Such a nice thing to come home to after being out all day celebrating my birthday.

One of the most annoying and difficult things with long distance is communication, especially when you’re both in different timezones. It is such a big thing for a relationship to work and the most important thing I’ve found out is to talk over the phone or on facetime and not send long messages to each other is you’re discussing something, and that’s for every kind of relationship I think… Boyfriend, girlfriend, family… It’s easier understanding each other and making sure the other part is listening to you. I know it always makes things easier with me and Dan.

I now sleep with the teddy and balloon next to me, haha. Cuuute.

Other than that my birthday weekend is officially over and I’m actually okay with that – too much partying isn’t good for me! It has been fun though, it really has. Best night in LA so far must actually have been last night! Having fun with my roomates, meeting new people, experiencing more of LA. Then ending the night/starting the morning with some food from Rise N Grind. Perfect!

I need sleep now!

Photographs · traveling

My Birthday In Pictures

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Mozzarella and pesto pizza with cauliflower pizza crust!! So amazing.

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Had a perfect day ❤ Relaxing and nice for a 21st, and I ended it in a jacuzzi with wine surrounded by some really amazing girls I’ve met here ❤

I have even more pictures to show later, but here’s from Malibu during the day. The food was so nice and the day was perfect. Tonight we’ll go a bit harder on the partying and celebrating so I’m excited. Hope everyone’s good!

Photographs · Thoughts · traveling

Dinner With My Roommates

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So last night we went to do some promo for the sushi place, Sushiya, that Katie works for and we all had sushi for dinner! Cozy night. Also a little “fun”fact – earlier this day I had been crying. I’m sharing it because I hate when people act so perfect, and I love when they share something random and honest. Now you might also think “ooh I see it she looks different”, but no there’s just no eye makeup… The times you can tell I’ve been crying you can really tell. There’s been times where my eyes have been so swollen you almost couldn’t see them, hehe.

I have a weird thing – sometimes there’s weeks where I don’t like sushi at all and can’t even eat it, while times like this – since I’ve been in LA – I love it. I think it’s the sushi that I buy from the shop that makes me feel sick, when it’s not that fresh.

Can anyone tell how black my eyes look by the way?? My pupils are always so big except for when I’m in sunlight, and I don’t even know why…

Today is going to be a nice Thursday guys! Katie and I are going around Santa Monica and making a day out of it, and maybe I’ll find a cool outfit as well. Because in the evening we’ll be celebrating my birthday and I’ll be turning 21!! Wow. I’ve been thinking I’m actually going to disconnect from all social media on my birthday, on Friday. I want to just be in the moment and appreciate where I am and what I am doing. It’s so easy to say you’re going to do that, but people always bring up their phone, and especially on their birthdays or special occasions – answering and writing texts, when you should be enjoying the moment. I’ll answer everyone either the day before (because of timezones lol) or the day after. I don’t want to spend any time on social media for that day ❤ Maybe I’ll make it a thing for my birthdays.

personal · Photographs · Thoughts · traveling

It’s My Motivation

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Look how pretty! Katie and I went to this really quiet and calm place in LA some time ago and I saw exactly how I would want it to be the day I wanna settle down. A quiet place in a big city next to the beach and ocean… It’s so weird that I came across it and it was just how I wanted it, all of it. I got the weirdest feeling just looking around but I think I really needed it. Motivation.

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I needed to post this today and I needed to look at the pictures again just because they give me something. It’s not easy when you are timezones away and you feel like you’re not being understood in the way you wish you were. Today I feel like no one understands what’s going on right now (yes I am in LA and super lucky!! But there’s more stuff, pressure and stress being built up), so when people bring me even more instead of understanding me and my words I get really drained and end up wasting a lot of time and energy.

I’m working on getting better at not getting so caught up in it and just stop wasting time trying to make people understand what I see or feel, because it’s just something I can’t always expect.

I believe everything always happens for a reason, and things will work out in my life, no matter what direction it leads me there’s always a reason for it.

I’m so lucky and blessed, and there’s so many struggling and trying to make people understand that you can not keep wasting precious time – you need to love, learn, grow and make time for the ones who gives you positivity in life. And most of all you need to take care of yourself.

I’m gonna make the most out of my day now ❤

photoshoot · Thoughts · traveling

Instagram Photoshoot

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Looking so innocent and classy 🙂 Two pics from the quick photoshoot I had for a brand’s Instagram the other day.

I have a lot of thoughts right now and I want to write a lot these days, I just have to sit down alone and get in my zone. I am so grateful for the sudden response I got from my previous blogpost here, and I’m so grateful for being able to talk to people via email, Facebook and even Instagram. I hope everyone know they can reach out!

Other than that I had a nice Friday night here in LA, hanging out and eating sushi with friends. I’m so incredibly tired right now though, after not going to sleep until 6.30(!!) this morning. Not because of going out, but neither me or my roommate Katie could fall asleep. And me being me wanting to get things done I still woke up at a decent time today, so I desperately need my sleep right now. Good night from me ❤

modeling · Photographs · traveling

Who Do I Live With?

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You saw a quick clip of who I live with in my last video, but here’s more of Kayla! Such a fun and loving person ❤️ We were gonna hike up to the Hollywood sign yesterday, but the sun was setting so we just found a random hill and I led the way, lol. We got a nice view though! It was so pretty with the pink colors in the sky.

I was going to post the video of me and Dan today, but I have to do it tomorrow. I’m on my way to a shoot in San Diego and it will take ages before I get to upload it and my phone will probably end up dying. I’m excited for the shoot though, and I’ll get to see a new place! I will probably vlog the day and for sure take lots of photos as well. It’s even going to be with camels, haha. I just hope they’re treated well! Will update you guys about the day more later!

Photographs · traveling

Mornings In Los Angeles

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Local time LA: 11.20

You can do a lot with an iPhone and a self timer, huh? The sun was out so wanted to show you the pretty view from our balcony (but mostly me obviously lol).

Today I’m still sick, but I’m most likely going to go hiking! Up to the Hollywood sign, or Runyon Canyon. I mean, I’m still a tourist so there’s things I need to do and see! I actually have quite a busy week ahead now when it comes to modeling, so that’s exciting. Shoots, meetings… Will be fun!

I’m gonna keep drinking my coffee, and finish up the video of me and Dan! Stay tuned!