personal · Thoughts

Can I Get Forever?

The feeling of not being in control. The feeling of time just passing by.

I get stressed out because I want forever.

I don’t know what will happen. Is there going to be nothing or is everything going to be new?

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I just know I would never want to be someone else.

I would never want my battles to be different because they have made me into who I am today.

I would never want to be without these loving people I have around me.

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I really do appreciate every bad and good thing in my life so much. It has helped me grow, and I do feel grateful for the person I’ve become so far and how my eyes see the world.

I don’t know what’s to come, but even though my life will change – I will still be me and I know I will keep the people I love in my life. It’s what I’ve been doing since I started living.

So I think it’s a scary feeling.

Not having forever.

Am I being greedy? Yes, probably.

Does it make me appreciate every day more? Yes, hopefully.

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So I try to look around. I see what I have at this moment – and I feel so happy.

I might go chasing for different things, but never would I go chasing for different people. You only have this one life to keep them with you – and damn if I ever let them go.

I’m keeping them with me.

personal · Thoughts · traveling

Me And Him

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I love these photos of us ❤ My mom has for sure learned some photography skills from taking photos of me for so many years.

I feel so grateful for having this guy in my life – and I think it’s so strange how I would’ve never have met him if I didn’t take that big chance by moving to London. It’s also strange to me how easy it’s always been for me to be myself around him, and how he gets on so well with the people that means the world to me and that I’ve always had in my life. We understand each other so well even though we are from completely different places and have had different lives – even though there’s still these things that makes us so alike. We both try to be the best we can be for each other, but also motivate one another to work hard and see our own potential. It’s so important.

We argue and fight, but that’s what happens when you love someone like that. I don’t ever think it’s healthy to never argue because it’s not real. You’re never going to agree with everything, and it’s a sign of love to me – I can’t just let something pass or not tell people I love what’s on my mind. That’s why you argue with the ones you care about.

So don’t ever think nothing good will come out of taking big chances, because the truth is you never know.

personal · poem · Thoughts

It’s A Two Way Thing

Sometimes it’s ok to keep giving.

Sometimes you need to take a step back and take a look at who you’re giving so much to.

To see if they know what they’re getting.

How much.

Sometimes you need to take a step back and remind yourself what you’re worth.

To see if they appreciate.

How much.

I admire people who can see that.

Who can see what you go through for their happiness.

Who wants to go through the same for your happiness.

Sometimes it’s ok to stop giving.

– Marte Fredriksen

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Everyday · Outfit · Photographs · Thoughts · traveling

My Bad Luck

IMG_0209IMG_0204IMG_0199IMG_0223IMG_0214Loving this outfit! And this area 😦 Ah i really feel like staying a bit longer… And I really don’t feel like packing all my stuff again tonight. Always get’s messy when I’m trying to find out what to wear so I always have to pack my whole suitcase again.

Imagine my bad luck when the weather’s been so good back in Bodø while I’ve been here in rain – and now that I’m leaving Oslo the sun comes while the rain comes back to Bodø… Annoying!

Will be really nice to see my mom and also meet Dan again so I’m excited anyways ❤

personal · Thoughts

Always And Forever

you can’t really explain it

can you

knowing that

no matter what

you will always

always

have that

one

person

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we can’t really explain it

can we

going through life

side by side

even though we’re

miles from miles

away

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sometimes

we’re side by side

once again

for real

and it’s the same

like

always and

forever

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Photographs · Thoughts

Notes From A Rose Gold iPhone

“And I’m probably gonna look you up when we’re both in our thirties or forties

and it’s probably gonna sting a little

and I’m gonna see that your life turned out just fine

and you’ve got a family and it’s gonna make me

both happy

and sad

because a part of me is gonna wish it was me

making a life with you

but we both know that would’ve been a mess don’t we”

“And one day you’ll sit there with your family and tell your kids

about your youth

and for a second you’ll think of me

and I’ll do the same

and for an even longer second we’ll feel all the things we once felt so strong

but then we’ll go back to living our lives

how it was supposed to turn out

because we would’ve just been a mess,

wouldn’t we?”

Marte Fredriksen

Photo: Thomas Van Cam

Thoughts

Make A Choice

Everyday we’re reminded how short life is… The world is not a safe place anymore – or was it really ever? We all hear about accidents, tragedies, illnesses…

But do you ever stop and think about the fact that the old lady in front of you, that you’re getting annoyed at because you just want to get your coffee, who smells because she can’t take care of herself anymore and can’t remember the pin to her card, once was young like you? Carefree like you?

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The man that now can’t speak, who get’s angry because no one understands what he is trying to say, hurts himself because he sees what isn’t there – did you know that he used to make the funniest jokes and used to work for hours, climbing up on people’s rooftops to fix them?

Did you know that he did everything to get his little granddaughter to smile?

Did you know that he was the most handsome guy in his town when he was younger, having all the girls admiring him, but he was too shy to realise?

I know that.

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Life just sneaks up on you and as you get older you realise there are certain things in life you have no say in. But do you know what you can do?

You can make a choice.

Make a choice to be happy – to appreciate things and not let moments or good people go to waste. Enjoy the moments and keep the people with you.

Did you know there was this guy at Starbucks the other day? He was in a wheelchair and had someone with him to care for him.

Did you know I was upset and almost crying while doing my best to hide it?

In the crowd he saw me.

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Did you know that he made the effort moving his wheelchair to go over to me, shake my hand, say his name the best he could and let me know it was nice to meet me?

I saw in his face that he knew. He wanted to make me feel a bit better.

Did you know that I was smiling even after he left?

Did you know that he made my day a thousand times better?

The world can be such a cruel place, but there is so many beautiful people here.

Thank you so much for noticing me.

Photos: Tim Copsey