Photographs

I Can’t Describe It

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Photos taken back in my hometown by my mom. I miss her ❤

I’m kinda stuck with a feeling of not knowing what I’m doing, not even knowing how I feel about Sydney yet. So far it’s been stressful and less free than what I remember when I first moved to London. I know it’s partly because the circumstances are different, but I also know what situations and moments I need. It’s not always the easiest thing even though you know why and how and all that. You probably don’t know what I’m talking about, but I’ll continue writing anyway.  It ‘s so difficult describing what I’m feeling because I really don’t know just now, I’m not sure.

I’m now 22 and it feels weird to be honest. Well only the number I guess. Saying it and writing it. It just doesn’t feel like me. Your age isn’t you, but it’s still weird. I’ve decided this is going to be the year of realising things. Just realising everything. Kidding. I think you know where I was going. But I do want to figure out things. It’s not very specific, I know, but luckily I know what I mean. It’s difficult though. I just feel like there’s so many parts of me, so many passions and it’s all just a bit too blurry. As long as I try and also remember to challenge myself, then possibly end up failing, but for sure learning, then do it again, and eventually get to where I want. Sounds like a plan? I think so.

Something random: Today was the craziest weather day here in Sydney. It was a thunderstorm and I’ve never experienced anything like it. I believe there were quite a few accidents though, at least one very bad, which is extremely sad. I find it so scary how you can just leave home one morning and then never come back again… It’s very true but so upsetting…

I hope the weather was better where you are, and that you’re all good and safe!

Photographs · Skincare/Makeup

Something Unusual

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Like I have told you guys briefly before I also do makeup videos as a little side job, and with that it means I also do a lot of different looks – some of them not very typical of what I normally would do for makeup, but that’s what I think is fun! To try out different colours, looks and products.

This look is one of the latest I’ve done, it’s quite dark with purple tones – I always use eyeshadow over lipstick or lipgloss if I’m going for a bit of a different colour. I find it a lot easier (and cheaper) because I don’t want to purchase lipsticks in every colour to only use very rarely.

Other than that we are going to Sydney NEXT Sunday! In a week! I’m so excited. Right now I am in my hometown with my mom, just planning, sorting out things for the move – but most of all just spending some quality time and relaxing ❤

Photographs

Do You Think Flowers Will Grow Here?

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“i can still see our construction hats lying
exactly where we left them
pylons unsure of what to guard
bulldozers gazing out for our return
the planks of wood stiff in their boxes
yearning to be nailed up
but neither of us goes back
to tell them it is over
in time
the bricks will grow tired of waiting and crumble
the cranes will droop their necks in sorrow
the shovels will rust
do you think flowers will grow here
when you and i are off
building something new
with someone else”

–  the construction site of our future

by rupi kaur

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Photo by Saq Imtiaz and edit by me