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Makeup, Traveling, Australia

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Snaps from today. I work with Lava Art and did another look for them today! Always fun and I do really like working and being more creative with makeup, but the best part is when I’ve filmed and taken my pics – then taking off the lashes and everything else before I put moisturiser on a fresh and clean face.

My almost monthly cold (what it feels like) is back and I’m just praying to get better before I got to Berlin this week!! To see my¬†unbiological sisters ūüėČ It’s so cool how they decided to move there, and I’m so excited to experience Berlin for the first time!

Australia is also coming up… In almost just a month! It’s going to be my new home?! How crazy… Will probably write more about the process and everything that comes with it if you are interested. No job or apartment has been found yet, but I’m getting pretty used to just going with the flow.

A different post, more of a little update – but to be honest I’m sitting here in bed ready to make some green tea and finish editing some videos before I try and get my sleep so I can feel better!! I just wanted to check in and write a little something. I do want to know if you would want me to do a video though, I could do a makeup video showing my favourite look for you guys if interested ‚̧ Let me know!

Also if you’re a true crime freak like me, start listening to true crime podcasts! So far I’ve listened to Dirty John and Dr. Death that I would recommend! Please let me know if you know any really good ones.

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How Will We Ever Be Happy With Our Bodies?

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the sun and her flowers by rupi kaur 

i reduced my body to aesthetics

forgot the work it did to keep me alive

with every beat and breath

declared it a grand failure for not looking like theirs

searched everywhere for a miracle

foolish enough to not realise

i was already living in one

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Photo: Mila Ritz

Treat your body like you treat someone you love. Someone who loves you back. You should want to take care of it because it takes care of you. Make sure it’s healthy and happy, because that gives you health and happiness.

I’ve been through ups and downs with my body, and at times I’ve treated it very poorly. I went from being happy and healthy to the opposite when I stepped into the modeling industry. You can read more about that story here.

Everyone always seem to blame “society”. Like we don’t realise we’re part of it. Society isn’t “them”, it’s all of us. It’s the comments, the unrealistic goals that’s never real, and the judgement if you ever say you are happy with yourself.

It starts with us. It will always start with us, you and me. Appreciate your body for what it always was supposed to be. A miracle. Amazing in itself, exactly how it is.

You’re here, aren’t you?

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How Do I Edit My Pictures?

I only edit my pictures on my phone, and I thought I would share my favourite apps with you. My editing always depend on the picture, and what kind of look/mood I’m going for.

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HUJI app

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I love the HUJI app, and startet using it a few months ago. I love the old look and I just think the picture ends up with so much more feeling. It’s probably the easiest way to edit your pictures, if you’re not too picky. You just choose the pictures you want to edit and they “develop”, and a few seconds later you got your pictures looking like they were taken with analog film. The edit is random, and you can also choose if you want random light effects, which I always do.

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Lightroom CC

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With Lightroom I sometimes edit the highlights, contrasts and colour completely different to give the whole picture a different look. It ends up showing more details, especially if the photo was very light and unclear at first. I basically did that on the first photo, and on the second I was quite happy with the look of it (as I was standing right next to the window haha), so I only made the colours a bit stronger and edited some contrast. The good thing about Lightroom is that you can save your edits so that you can just use the same ones on other photos if that’s the vibe you’re going for. I know you can buy other’s presets (edits) as well, but I haven’t done that.

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Previously I used VSCO all the time, but I actually haven’t done that in ages. I do think it’s good for quick edits if you like any of the filters on there though, and it’s also very easy to make it your own with a few changes.

So that’s basically my “go to” editing apps! I’m no pro at editing, but I do really enjoy sitting down and editing my pictures while sipping my coffee and having some random series play on Netflix, haha.

Hope you found some of it useful!

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Less Or More, More Or Less

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I still remember when I went to try and get my Visa accepted, for the second time, to go to America. The first time I didn’t get accepted because they didn’t believe I just wanted to go to Los Angeles all alone, to experience and fulfil a dream I had as a little girl. The second time I remember the guy almost got angry at me when I told him about my story and how I want to continue to travel to experience and see the world. “Are you never going to settle down?” “What are you supposed to do for the rest of your life?”. I remember thinking “who are you to make me feel bad about actually doing the one thing I want to do in my life”.

We all have created the expectation of a life over time, “settling down”, and the word “unrealistic”. These rules and ways of life that only exists inside our heads.

I want to live my life exactly how I want to live it. Such simple words and a given really, right? But that’s what my plan is – for as long as I live. That’s what we should do, isn’t it? It’s yours to live.

I want to be free. I want to be with the ones I love so much and so strongly that my heart even hurts a little bit. I want to see and experience everything of this planet that I have time to see. I want to speak up. I want to make the difference I can.

I might not have it all figured out. I might not spend all my young adult life studying to become a lawyer or a doctor. I might be here one day and in another country the next day. I might be a model one day, a waiter one day, and a business owner some day.

I am still educated. I am still hard working. I am still growing each and every day. More than others, less than others. I am just doing my own thing – less or more, more or less – it shouldn’t be compared, we shouldn’t be compared.¬†

We are constantly told how we are all unique and no one is like one another, so let us live a unique life. No matter what that means to you. It’s yours.

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Photo: @susiphotographer